I joined this challenge to improve my health and well-being. I’ve somehow lost myself along the way being a mom. I work full time and am just plain so busy with life that I would push my needs and goals aside to focus on that. I can’t even tell you how many different programs I would try but would just give up. I am very much a caretaker, but I also struggle with positive self-talk at times. When things get me down, I start telling myself negative things which ends up making me fall into a deep depression. So much to the point where I’ve attempted suicide.
My marriage was failing, and I felt so alone because I didn’t want to tell anyone what I was really feeling. I just felt like an overall failure and just didn’t feel that I was bringing any value to this world because everything I would do, I would give up. I felt like all I was doing was just continuing to let everyone down.
It was recently that I had somewhat of a life changing moment that I will forever cherish. I climbed a 300-foot wind turbine. The reason why this was so life changing for me is because I am not a heights person whatsoever. It was so far out of my comfort zone, let me tell you, but I did it. Going through that experience made me realize a lot. I realized that if I just believe in myself and continue to be uncomfortable that I can achieve my goals. It was that moment that I realized I was holding myself back from so much. And why? I have so much love for everyone else, why am I not doing the same for myself? It was just such a cool moment for me and I’m so thankful I did that because I know I needed it!
Heading into this challenge I decided to have that same mindset and continue to put all those feelings and emotions I overcame to the test. I want to see how far I can go if I just believe in me, get out of my head and get comfortable being uncomfortable. No one achieves goals by just settling- they achieve them by pushing themselves and being ok being uncomfortable. So that’s what I’m going to do.
What I want to gain: to be strong AF. I have honestly always wanted to do fitness modeling or competing.
This challenge I wanted to lose a large amount of body fat, continue to perfect nutrition, and gain muscle. I’m so excited to say that I did that and then some! Never did I ever think I was going to achieve this, but I trusted in my coaching at Fuse and just went for it. I still have work to do but I just know I am not stopping. That just goes to show if you believe you can that you will!